Guess it's Goodbye

"So Mom, when is your next pregnancy going to be, seeing as Kathy and Zach have moved out?" asked an ever curious Sunny.

"Never," I replied simply.

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"There comes a time in your life when you begin to realize all the many things you never paid attention to before."

"O-kay," he said slowly and awkwardly.

I sighed. It was true. I was quitting the challenge, although I didn't like to look at it that way. I mean, how could I continue the challenge? What was the point of it other than having the ability to say that you had had 100 kids. I loved them all dearly, of course, but why bring them into this torturous world with a shameful ghost mother? Not even with a good fatherly figure. Used to, they had Alex. But now, it's just me and them. Not a great combination.

The kids would come home with tears in their eyes. People who had made fun of them from being in a family of ghosts. Different is good, I would always tell them. But could I convince myself?

And having to live with the fact that my kids are growing older than I. It's not natural. Parents are not supposed to outlive their children. But then again, I'm not technically alive. Either way, I interact with them, and they're older than me. That isn't right in my mind, and I'm not sure than I can ever see it that way.

I'm living an unnatural life. Maybe I should have just let myself go. That is the natural way of things, and I don't like feeling as though I'm defying fate. If there is such a thing.

Besides, 33 children is plenty enough for me. I've realized that I've raised them, and haven't done much after. I should involve myself in my existing children's lives before creating new ones. Do my children feel neglected? Maybe this challenge wasn't such a great decision in the first place. I was young and naive, and what did it do? Luna is gone, I'm a single mother of 33 children, and I'm a ghost. Such a good life, huh?

I don't blame my kids, of course. Without me they wouldn't be here today, and I really really really do love them. But I can't budge the thought of how my life might have been if Luna really had stopped me from doing the challenge. She might still be alive . . . There's not a day that I don't think of her.

But what can I do? I can't go back in time. Or, at least, I wouldn't. That would be altering the laws of the world. Which I have done enough of. No, now it's time to live with my earlier decisions and now this one. This is probably one of the most complex decisions I have made in life. Sure, making the decision to start the challenge was tough, but I was so young that I just jumped into it instead of thinking ahead.

So, then, why should we be able to live the lives of humans even if we truly aren't? I can't simply beg Grim for death, obviously, but I can live like I am supposed to, can't I? I couldn't really leave because my children. As ghostly or not that they may be, they have lives to live that they couldn't because I brought them into this world as ghosts. It's unfair to them. I wonder if they feel this way..

On the outside they seem happy, but is that really the case, especially when they come home crying?

Rai and Ralyn asked to move out with Kathy and Zach, so I let them. I don't blame them for wanting to leave early.

So I've made the decision that we're going to leave. I haven't told the kids yet, but I believe it will be better for them to live with others like us. Might even give them a bit of closure. And if our time comes, then it comes. We will be ready for whatever may happen.

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Now, maybe we can live the lives we were supposed to . . and be happy with it.

Good bye guys! Thanks for reading!

I hope you enjoyed it as much as I have! ♥

Baby 33

Madeline offered to help with the quads, seeing as she had nothing else to do that Saturday. Or at least, if she had a better plan she never told me about it.

So, she helped me by teaching Riva and Rai how to walk and talk, while I taught the other two. That still left me with potty training, although I doubt that she would have wanted to help me with that anyways. That was alright because I still had a few days before the quads' birthdays.

Rai seemed to really take a liking to her older sister. It was so sweet<3

And then this happened..

Madeline didn't seem to mind it. Instead, she casually picked up her sister and whispered to her. I couldn't hear what was said, but I think it was good.

Madeline: "Rai, that's not nice. You could have said you didn't want it. Please don't do it again. It only makes a mess, and we're trying to make this day good for Mommy."

Rai: "Okay, Sissy. I love Mommy."

All I could hear was the giggling afterwards, when Madeline set her down to play.

I was more than ready to clean up the mess, but Madeline insisted. I have such good children<3
So far.. Knock on wood..

Even Zachary pitched in . .

While Kathy, on the other hand, was a bit less supportive. I can't say that I blame her though.

Not to mention the fact that I didn't have to cook tonight.

Madeline went on a date, which made me sad because it made me see just how independent she really was. She's growing up! (READ IT HERE: Shades of a Rainbow)I haven't gotten to meet him yet, but she kept stressing about how much of a nice guy he was. I just hope he is what she suspects. There are too many guys out there that lie to women.

After their date, I met him. His name is Mark, apparently. He's a pretty cute little boy, if I do say so myself. He seems nice enough for my baby girl, and was very respectful. I just hope he stays that way.

"So, how did the date go?" I asked Madeline after Mark had left.

"Mom," she groaned.

So I went ahead and potty trained the quads.

And fixed the TV. Thank goodness I wasn't electrocuted. Wait, I can't get electrocuted!

Madeline aged up the next morning into a gorgeous young adult.

 

Zachary and Kathy also aged up, into fine teenagers.

Ralyn-

Rai-

Rayven-

Riva-

With more room to expand my family, I chose a good quality father. And 3 days later, I gave birth to ...

Baby 33: Sunny

Babies 29-32

While Madeline was gone for her first day of school, I decided to teach Kathy and Zachary their necessary skills to age up. I didn't really have anything else to do, and I doubted their father would stop by. He creeped me out anyways, honestly. Of course that meant that they would probably grow up without a father figure, which made me sad.

I also fed the fish that I'm surprised are still alive.

As it appears, Madeline left her toy at home today. It was probably an accident, and now Kathy has it. I wonder what will happen now. Madeline has never had to share her things, and I doubt she will want to share Lucky.

Madeline brought home a boy from school today. He seemed pretty nice, and his name was Francisco. Something about him made me question his future though . . . You can probably guess.

They played on the playground nearly all night. Madeline had so much fun that she didn't even hardly look in Lucky's direction.

Of course that's not to say that Kathy and Zach didn't have their own fun.

Obviously not paying any attention to Lucky. So while they were outside, I recruited the next challenge father.

Madeline asked for a bedtime story. Unfortunately, the only book I had was about Charisma. She seemed to enjoy it, nonetheless. Either that or she just didn't want me to leave. I'm still unsure.

I took a bit of time to paint before the twins woke up.

The twins aged up, which made Madeline want to age up. She had straight A's, so I allowed it.

Madeline grew up into a beautiful teenager.

And then, when I was taking a bath a few days later, I went into labor. It was the morning of the kids' field trip to the mausoleum.

Welcome babies 29-32! 
Rayven, Riva, Ralyn, and Rai!